Couple this with a promise to yourself. At least 1 hour per day of your best effort. On days you're feeling it you'll do more, and that's good. On days you're not feeling it you're gonna struggle bus through your best effort for an hour, and then you're gonna go do something else guilt free knowing that you made SOME progress and kept the promise to yourself.

As long ad you can find a way to do it legally - don’t worry about “sentiments”. In decent countries (all english speaking ones, western europe) - real (not tiktok “stars” or radicals) average people respect hard working immigrants, especially if they embrace, respect and adapt to the new culture.

But at the same time emigration is not a simple answer, it is a huge challeNge in itself (maybe the biggest in your life if you’re not a rich kid), there are many more factors at play, that might be more important to you personally.

Anyway, abroad or not - best teachers are 1) the master, expert, ready to share wisdom and teach you 2) real life, i.e. tangible goal or project you _have_ to accomplish. For example a pet project that you personally care for. However small and simple - if it solves your real problem, if you really want to make it happen, it will teach you more that 100 of books with madeup examples that you dont care about.

Good luck!