It's born out of my very real frustration at finally getting to a point where I could get therapy only to be continually stymied by multiple emails never responded to, multiple calls never answered or replied, and finally after one appointment for online therapy finally set up being ghosted by the practitioner.

I get that therapy is good, and I believe it can be helpful or else I would have never sought it out, but, I am amazed that anyone can get it.

I've also met people who have no money, no insurance, no job, but are able to get therapists with a single call, which is all the more infuriating because those same people have been consistently unable to help me do the same.

Money and tears and pleading won't open these doors for me and it almost feels personal, like the universe itself conspires to keep me specifically away from good mental health, so I have a nice reservoir of anger towards anyone who casually mentions that going to therapy will solve all your problems or that the conventional way of doing things is the right way to do them.

If human therapists make themselves unavailable to me both in person and online, then I'll make do without them.