The exams didn't go as I planned it to. I spent way too much time in physics and I couldn't solve much in chem and in maths I really panicked

I think it was one of the worst exams I had. I expected better of myself.

Regarding curiosity, I don't even know man. I had some of the most depressive thoughts today, I do want to do better in the next exam & I don't even want to take a break (well I slept 9 hours after exam or something)

I don't even know, every family member of my like brother etc. they are all somewhere good in life, some getting married, some have jobs, some studying in prestigious & I was on that trajectory too but today the day which mattered, all hell broke loose

Curiosity's kind of killed. You can read my comments in here, they show curiosity but it doesn't matter man, it just doesn't.

I just wanted to get into a decent college & still do.

No you didn't presume too much, I don't know what to feel & I am worried all my friends and everyone would ask me marks and my mother and father associates and I am not prepared for them to tell my marks which I feel are severely low or like I just didn't expect exam like such.

Like, In my exams or mocks, I had two types of exams, one where questions just clicked and the other where they didn't. I knew which chapters were clicked etc. and like fuckkk all the questions atleast in maths and chem came from my chapters which I didn't feel good at or the majority of and maths just panicked me hard even though Maths is one of my favourite subjects

I just want to get alone & start again. Just completely alone and I want my brain to think straight and not feel like being in two places at one time not being able to control it.