From a young age, I was prescribed stimulants to 'treat' a strong case of ADHD. Being ~7 at the time, I had no clue what was going on. Never really questioned it either. Fast forward 18 years: through a lot of introspection, I can happily say I am not in a position I'd like to be in.

Stimulants come at tradeoffs.

I've come to realize that people with ADHD are: - Observant - Social - Generalist

I've also come to notice that I am: - Specialist - Zombie - Anti Social

"Locked-in" = specialist.

I hate specialization. Its fragile. Throughout history, generalists have reigned. Entrepreneurs are generalists. I want to be an entrepreneur.

I work a job now. Software Engineering. Im left wondering, what will I do if I leave the stimulants? I dont vouch for the life I live, at all. I will find a way out of it.

Im not an introvert. Yet I've grown as one. Its isolating, seeing people socialize and strangely feeling out of place.

I've confirmed all of this through trial and error. Dropping the stimulants, going back on them.

Its an odd discovery in your 20s that you are a completely different person than you had thought.

The world becomes beautiful when you see it raw for the first time. Food tastes wonderful. Moments become magical and powerful. It feels tingly to make someone laugh and converse deeply. I dont believe there are many people who've experienced the difference so suddenly.